Reflections of the past and moving on...

Daddy & Abigaile Laguna beach- 2011

Tall Ships Festival Dana Point, Ca 2011

Sea World San Diego, Ca 2012 

Always! 

GPS: Top of The World 2010

random somewhere around Arizona on the way to California. 2010

    Well it really has been a very busy, tiring, but yet thrilling time for our little girl.  We have been thankful for the time that we have spent here in S. California.

Abigaile @ our condo before we left Arkansas. We were packing the Kidwalk walker was her only form of independence. Sept 2010

 We are at a point however that it is time to move on.  We came here 2 and 1/2 years ago after making the decision that our daughter
would be able to receive a better continuity of medical care.  Her primary care Physician resides here and so it has been a lot easier when we have had issues that we need to deal with it just makes it so much easier. We also have access to more providers and providers that can meet our daughters medical needs.

somewhere in New Mexico or Arizona I could not believe the beautiful rainbow near the sun 2010

 There are also more of a diverse area of treatments for us to select for her with advice from her Primary Care Physician who has been a great deal of help to us. It has really been difficult not having any additional help, not that we have had any additional help to begin with but we have totally depended on our immediate family ( myself, Allen (dad), Natascha (big sister) ) to help with everything. It was before we moved her that we as a family decided that we needed to help Abigaile and she would thrive best under the conditions of the entire family helping her.

Abi wearing her seizure helmet- the meds weren't working Sept 2010

 Each person has given unconditional, and has made sacrifices in order to help Abigaile thrive and do what is best for her.

At a hotel along the way somewhere in New Mexico 2010

I imagine that we all feel tired and short-changed at times. I never get to leave this. We do many things for the well-being of Abigaile. It was our choice, it will remain our choice.  There has been no one else who has contributed to care or decision making or anything with Abigiale for her daily needs ever.
  With that being said we are at the end of our lease soon- very soon.  We will not be able to stay in our home any longer here as the home owner will not allow us any additional time on the lease due to the need to sell his income property.

Awesome splendor of the Grand Canyon 2010

The market here appears as a sellers market and so without further we give him our blessing. I have looked for well over two months trying to find another rental and have not been successful in renting another property.

My three peas (notice I'm hardly ever in pictures, there would be no one to take a picture) @our vacation rental in S. Laguna Beach. 2010 When we got here. 

We have a letter stating that our funds can be paid from a bank who has been gracious in helping with our requests and with current homeowner/landlord giving us a great letter of recommendation. It appears that one way or the other we will be moving. We have been turned down numerous times for other rentals and there are just not the houses coming on the rental market. I believe there are some really ugly things happening and favorites are being played but I don't have time for games nor do I play them.  My family needs a home.

packing and moving from Arkansas Sept- Oct 2010  

  We are putting all therapy and treatments on hold until this happens. Then we will take a week off from moving.

She learned how to cruise and find the water - this is 2nd rental home in Laguna Niguel. 2011

The 24 ft straight truck I was telling you about. its everything we own. Allen fell off this truck the day we left. 

 It stands currently that we aren't sure if we will even be able to stay in the state or not. This means my husbands job he spent 2 years finally securing a full time job we may have to leave simply because we can't find a home and even if we do the cost of living here is so crazy we have no discretionary income. We can't pay our bills and I will have to drop school.  We have many things to consider with this coming up but this too shall pass and we will move on.

Family picture at the Grand Canyon- we dressed like twinkles. It was so cold. Sept 2010

  I wanted to share some of our moments while here and one day I will document the trip on the way here. By the way, we gave away most of our belongings packed up a 24 ft straight truck and we came 1600 miles to help our child. We will trust that God will lead us where

my sweet girl before we left Rogers Arkansas Sept 2010

He wants for us to go next and we will come back to do therapy and treatments we just won't be able to live here.  We are saddened by this but know that is the best decision for our family. I hope you enjoy some of the photos ...

Mr Alex and TMS @ The Brain Treatment Center so thankful for these guys & their knowledge to help stop Abi.s seizures.

I am working on getting the pictures for some reason when I transferred them to the blog from my photo album they didn't transfer where I wanted them to go...

we don't get out much but this was at Newport Mall 2011

Some of the photos are very random but some of the treatments or special times that we have here. We were able with a limited income to still be able to do a lot of free things as we really enjoy nature and there are so many beautiful sights here. One day I'll do a journal of our travel for care...

Abi doing Hyperbaric Oxygen Treatments. We love Dr. Jolly and his team !

we have business cards with this photo it is priceless to me it tells about Abigailes miracle and her vaccine injury

on our way to Lake Elsinore to the outlet mall. 2011

My two beauties. Abigaile & Natascha in hyperbaric chamber. One of us goes in with Abigaile at all times. 

A reminder: Wherever you go God is ALWAYS there! That is where home is at. 

A school field trip at the Long Beach aquarium. Looks like we need some sun. 2012 

is anybody out there @The Center for Integrative Medicine ( we love you guys and girls !!)

we have seen some of the most beautiful beaches, experience warm weather for winter, we have missed terribly the thunderstorms though.

The TallShips Festival at Dana Point, Ca 2011 just gorgeous! 

we LOVE Polfit, a new level of Physical Therapy... love these guys so awesome to work with!
this was Abigaile when she started Polfit could not stand alone. Had to have assistance and walk with her walker ( A Kidwalk)

Dana Point, Ca Harbor. We pack picnics and take our meal we go to the beach to watch the sunset or to the Harbor to watch the sunset and boats . 

My sweet girl at SeaWorld watching one of the shows 2012

Abigaile venturing out on her own to walk in shallow water- she does this so easily now 2012

My beautiful Princesses of the God Most High! This is what Encephalitis looks like.  It can be deadly.

This is Abi after some therapy and walking with crutches at Polfit Thank you Enya and the team at Polfit for making her work. You guys are awesome! She thinks that you are playing LOL

Here is a child @ Polfit and full of life. We still have hard days, with untreatable seizures (God can heal them) and days that we can't determine which thing she is allergic too!


God has not judged us but He is merciful. We are waiting on Him and what He wants for our lives. I forgot to post Dr. Jerry and Abigaile in here but Dr. Jerry was in a previous post and has his own web link. Please forgive me Dr. Jerry ..
It is time to move on, no matter where it is- its like the photo above that says no matter where we go God will be there before us. I am so thankful to know that and you know what? He always has been there! 

our best Physical Therapy at home EVER !

I remember this picture at Aliso Creek Beach and asking God to calm the storms in our life to let me know my baby was healed. He gave me great peace and comfort looking out over the sea.

most incredible sunsets ever..

Thank God for Rainbow Ranch Farms - with out Xenia and Dennis and thank you Mary also and all the other great farm families we wouldn't have had food for our daughter. We are so thankful that we have become part of your family.

The most beautiful sunsets ever....

Allen, how did you blur us?

our Vineyard church family Vacation Bible School

our trip in 2011 to see a nutritionist in San Francisco

Abigaile at Sea World

Thank you Dr. Jerry for your hospitality , your knowledge, wisdom and thank you for helping us to rehab our daughter. We appreciate your insight and just sometimes being honest and saying " I don't know".  Thank you for believing in Abigaile and treating Abigaile and our vaccine injured family when no one else would.  Thank you for sharing information with me and allowing me to voice my fears, and when I didn't feel that something was going to work.  Thank you for making us work out of our comfort zone. 

we have come a long way baby...

  This is really true looking at the past two years of our lives.  After such a horrible event,  the cover up of the truth.  The Dr.s and Specialists in denial, or are they?  Are they not being told the truth are they being lied to?  There are agencies in our US government system that approve all the food, drugs, medical equipment that show a reasonable consideration for the safety system , right? 

  I use to think so, not so much anymore. I am also still in that system to a point and continue education in the system of Health Sciences and out of the system. I have to say besides a few people who are out there just to defiant to the system well I believe there are a lot more people searching and not just being fed what they are being fed. 

  I learned this scenario 9 years ago when my daughter was vaccine injured. It is amazing to me how many people that haven't had this happen to them, haven't researched vaccines, haven't really looked at any of the statistics just believe what information they are given.  Please do not try and educate me on something that is just hear say. I have to laugh when people can't give statistics, or can't give anything except well thats just what is reported.

  I have a medical background. I also have common sense. I also know that not everyone lives by the "one shoe size fits all " philosophy.  First, our case is documented and we asked that it be published. My daughter does not have autism, that in no way means that vaccine injury does not cause autism and it doesn't mean every child will have a vaccine injury.  I didn't just wake up one day anti- vax. I took my children to well-visits (every one of them) I also vaccinated my children until the youngest child had a vaccine injury so severe it almost took her life. I didn't just jump on the anti- vax band wagon in fact I never knew such informed and researched people existed. I wish I had known I would have surely been talking with them early on.

  Seriously what in hell happened to me? Was I so blind working in the system before children that I had become brain-washed and didn't have an open mind? I never knew or felt there was a private agenda behind the pharmaceutical drug industry and it is called INDUSTRY for a reason.  Have you ever noticed that you have to make multiple trips to the Dr. , then get tests, them go to the Dr. for followup , then more tests, then more trips and sometimes multiple Dr.s , specialists and even go out of state?  I love the Dr.s I grew up with their philosophy was food? They would ask my mom, "what is she eating? Is she eating healthy? We lived on a farm.  I remember my parents saying the chickens have gone to hell when they raised chickens for a (name brand chicken producer) they had to go around physically taking little bottles of antibiotics and putting it in each individual water holder.  I next remember they kept taking our dead chickens they had three large chicken houses in addition to my family also raised cattle.  We thought this was a way of life and it was. I also remember when after putting the antibiotics, I remember chickens dying then came they had to go around and put vitamins in the waterers of the chickens. Then they were required to buy medicated feed. Does this sounds right to you? I am not asking for anyones opinion on my daughter I ran with the conventional medical malpractice its called ClubMed a very lucrative business and I have been disgusted by it.  The Dr.s who practice medicine are being pushed to the wayside because they still think and still practice medicine. They are retiring early and earlier. It is shameful there is a time that no one will seem to get well because of all the synthetic money making drugs. I am not completely denying drugs by any means but what I am saying is there is a purpose. There is no conspiracy when your child gets hurt and your family hurts.  Our family has come a long way and our daughter has come a long way. I give this credit to God. It was not the Dr.s, the specialists, not even me or my family , absolutely nothing but God! God has been the one to give us provision, God has been the one who has given us wisdom, the Dr.s wisdom. We are thankful to God for that. We are thankful for Abigailes primary care he is the best, and we are thankful to her team of therapist and the treatments we have been able to do for her. It has been a blessing. The vaccine safety and efficacy is NOT a debate for me but fact and I have my facts other than saying repeated sayings from long ago. 

It is what it is and until those who make the vaccines, acknowledge that there is a problem and until those receiving the vaccines make a big deal or start researching it the truth will never be known. The fact is this: They are still a medication and so anyone can and does have an adverse reaction. If you are in denial of that then you are in denial of truth. If there are no problems with vaccines where are the independent studies? Where is the open research by someone other than the drug companies themselves (hello they makes profits, big profits off of these drugs ) drug dealers do the same and don't pay taxes on it. Why would they starve themselves. Where is the real evidence and where is the research to show that there is no harm and never will be any harm?  There isn't any.

If you say Go, we will go. If you say wait, we will wait

  Wanted to do a quick blog for now to say that while we are trying to get things organized and figure out exactly which end is up topside we will do more of an update and resume therapies and treatments.

If You Say Go - Vineyard Music 

God certainly amazes me, always! It is in our darkest hour, our trial our temptation that God just flourishes!  We feel so low like we are crawling but know that God is carrying us.  My little Abigaile is doing great.  We have been working on getting school organized and caught up after all the treatment months. We are just tired.  It will get better I do know this! It always does.

  Our challenge right now is that our current homeowner wants to sell his home, we feel that he wishes we would move on (as repairs are getting neglected and not paid attention to). That is okay if God wants us here He will work it out. If not, we shall move on.  I am not shaken. Psalm 62:2 says He only is my rock and my salvation, My stronghold; I shall not be shaken. AMEN.

ACTION STATEMENT: Acts 2:25 David said about him: "'I saw the Lord always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken.  

I believe that no matter what comes at us, God is in control.  It is handled.  No Fear!  We are to command the devil beneath our feet and do it with assurance and tell the devil to flee.  

James 4:7 Submit therefore to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.  

Disaster preparedness : Ephesians 6:13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.

We are putting our God before us and telling the devil to flee. We are preparing by putting on our armour of God daily and standing our ground!  

Evil will always come, whether it has a spiritual leg to stand on - is up to you!

always a servant
always praying

The absolute hand of God has touched my child I am so humbled by His forever presence.

My inspiration 

Paris 

Just another Day in Paradise ...

Lord, its me again.... 
  I'm really trying to keep it together but when I see things like this it really hurts and it 

really humbles my heart.  I am so thankful we have had God when there has been no one 

else! I am so glad He is there even though we may not see Him, or know that He is there 

because the very pit of our gut is just wrenching because, well we are still human. 


  Today was one of those days. We are thankful for what we have, thankful for Gods grace and His never- ending LOVE. We are thankful for one another we are thankful for all that we have and thankful that it belongs to God. I am just "THANKFUL",

   There are days like today that the emotions just really get to me. I am tired.  It is difficult having this road for over 9 years now that there has been no break and no vacation and no time away for me.  Really, no time away. Before you jump to conclusions that I want time away from my family I don't - I want a real vacation with my family.  I am tired of work 24/7 and no time for rest or fun.  It makes me angry and it makes me bitter.  

  Today was a bitter and hurtful day to me. I have made no secret of saying that I felt we have not had family and friends support during all of this with Abigaile.  I will say that there are a couple of friends who have been supportive of us even if it is to pray for us. There are many including family who have not.  

  It is difficult enough to try and care full time for a child to make decisions for her and our family and to be her private caregiver, her private chef ( I don't mean throwing a box full of dinner in the microwave) her nutrition and dietary requirements go beyond what most people can even comprehend and I'm not talking GFCF from a box or a special diet. It is a little more complicated than this.  It takes a lot of time, planning and sometimes days of preparation and cooking. I don't get to look at someone else to do my planning or make suggestions for me. I also coordinate her treatments , her care and logistics of her treatments and therapy. I really have no time left. I also have stayed in college obtaining my degree to further help my child so that I can understand how to better meet her needs. I am her full time teacher.  The school system can not guarantee her safety, meaning that they can not meet her needs. This is much more extensive than most people realize.  I am blessed by being paid but it is not enough.  

  The birthdays for the girls have been without friends (we had some friends who were part of our lives in Arkansas - and have met some really wonderful people since moving here) but it is difficult to orchestrate a birthday party or other get together unless the family is going through the same as us. I don't expect everyone to understand this, I realize more the majority does not understand. 

Today I saw a blow up bouncey house a couple of doors down in the front yard. I saw Abigaile slowly migrating toward the sofa. She loves to look out the window and watch all the people go by. Her name for playmates or friends (which she has really never had or known) is Boppee.  We saw children arriving at the party and starting to jump on the bouncey house. She sat there for almost 3 hours, wouldn't move watching and talking (chattering) and laughing. She was saying "hi" to all the children who were walking up the sidewalk to go to the party (these children were all about 6-10 years old) her age. It was just a raw and horrible feeling. She has only had one birthday party and there was no one to play with her that other kids were at. In the past we had the girls birthday parties together so there would at least be kids at Abigailes party otherwise there would be no one but her dad and I and her sister.  I watched her little eyes with anticipation as each child arrived and then she watched eagerly, then she would chatter to Natascha and I .. it was just heart breaking. I am thankful that she had a hope, a hope to play with these kids. 
I know how difficult to have what you call "normal" children (kids with our limitations) but people really miss the mark and teach their children horrible things when they don't explain to their children that our children with limitations even if they are temporary or not can play also.  I refuse to be bitter and shame on those people who have nothing to do with my child especially if you are family.  We are better off without those negative people in our lives. Those people who judge me for staying at home with my children instead of having a job outside the home I am doing what God called me to do and if you don't like it, I don't care.  The girls know who love them and who cares for them and they also know there are not people in their lives and I refuse to make them like people just because they have a family label on them.  I don't teach my children that ugliness. 
  
  This is the life of a vaccine injured family, not just a child - each and every one of our family members have been injured and have sacrificed for helping to make our Abigaile well. 

Please God heal our hearts and make us whole- 

Jer. 30:17 says, 
For I will restore you to health And I will heal you of your wounds,' declares the LORD, 'Because they have called you an outcast, saying: "It is Zion; no one cares for her."'

Thank you God that you bind up our wounds to heal us and make us whole. 

living with a servants heart

Happy New Year 2013

  It is from our family to yours we wish you a Happy and prosperous New Year 2013!

    I can safely say that this New Years Eve and New Years Day we did nothing. We are beat after two full years in Southern California with no help doing therapy or treatments of some sort and sometimes multiple every single Monday through Friday. This year will be much better planned. I am still waiting to hear from all the treatment and therapy sources on their availability and pricing and as soon as I hear from them well then we will be hitting the ground again. However, this year is a little different. We currently only have until May ( our 16th wedding anniversary) in this house. It is a great house but we need to clean out and it looks like move on. We thought that our job prospects would be better by now, we both have jobs but it just isn't enough. God has a plan, yes He does! We don't know what it is yet, but His Word says that it is to make us prosper in all things.  

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jer. 29:11. 

That is all I need to know. Bless God and bless His Holy name !

Happy New Year! 

Merry Christmas

 Well it is getting close to the closing and end of another year.  Goodbye 2012 as we remember the season to celebrate Christ the Messiah and what He has done for us.  When we moved to California 2 years ago in November 2010 we really had no idea what was in store for us as individuals, for Abigaile or for our family.  Never sell God short, He is amazing. I believe that what comes out of our mouth , what we speak, what we believe, and our actions play a significant role in our lives. If we are bitter we sow bitterness even sometimes trying to correct it.  We also sow our fear.  My only comment plain and clear is that it gives the devil a foothold and well beneath my feet satan and get thee behind me you liar!  

  We started out 2010 with our feet running- we stayed initially in a vacation rental as we didn't know the area.  We then moved to a rental further up the hill (this was because of availability and price).  We continued to do some form or shape of therapy Monday through Friday therapy or treatments every single day of the week non stop.   We did rTMS the Transmagnetic brain stimulation at the Brain Treatment Center, we did Applied Behavior Therapy, we did hyperbaric oxygen therapy.  We also looked for employment in between and home schooled.  This year we have done all of those again except we have not done the rTMS but started a very aggressive Polish therapy that is Monday through Friday 5 hours per day plus driving.  We have seen major improvements with Abigaile. Her gross and fine motor skills she has more strength, endurance and has began walking with crutches. We are really just starting to see the fruit of our labor.  This next year we will start a new regimen of therapies and treatments. I have already started planning for next year.  

  I will start by saying that our funds are dwindling.  It is crazy expensive in California.  We both have jobs on top of our rehabbing Abigaile and it is not enough. We really can't continue at the price we are. It is mentally and physically grueling.  We need rest and a vacation that we haven't had since we got married over Fifteen years ago.  We have spent the past nine years rehabbing our child from a vaccine injury and we still have a long ways to go.  

  We can no longer afford living expenses here as we are not getting any help from agencies, or state or anywhere else that benefit our daily living costs.  We are praying about where God wants us to go from here. So we are looking at job options elsewhere, cost of living, and how far it is from California so that we can travel 3-4 times per year to maintain Abigailes care. It is a terrible decision to make and not one that we are taking lightly. We just don't have the funds plain and simple. We are just tired.  We have the next six months living expenses and therapy and treatments and that is it.

  Our hopes and prayers are that you have a Merry Christmas may God grant you the desires of your heart. I know nothing is impossible with God!  Have a prosperous and Happy New Year.  I will consider the last two years we have spent in Southern California an absolute blessing from God. He has just melted my heart with His unconditional love during this season of our life. 

many many blessings,

Paris 

Little loaf of wonder bread

  This is all I will call it at this point.  There is nothing that ceases to amaze me about this girl.  She and her sister have been sick this week and not feeling well I'm really thankful just to see my babes playing.
  I say a loaf of wonder bread because I never have to wonder really about her not being inquisitive. She is my little miracle "wonder" girl!  I thank God for her well-being and healing every day. It is not always easy caring for a child who has so many special needs but she is sooooo worth it!  She was sick this week and not her inquisitive little self, its been a very long week but I would say by where she is right now and what she is doing she is happy.

  Id say she is ready to start school back again, wouldn't you?





Blessings flow,
Paris ( the most blessed momma ever )

Please stay tuned.... updates are in progress..and pictures

   This therapy lifestyle is hectic, it requires lots of time, effort, and patience.  I want to be able to share Abigaile's progress (good and bad) to encourage others.  However, it is a lot of time and effort to try and get all the information together. Please visit some of the web sites on the left hand side of the blog to see some of the therapies, our Dr., and don't hesitate to call them and let them know that you saw their web site on our page.

  Our days are spent doing 5-7 hours per day of intense therapy with Abigaile, and then usually another treatment on top of that so it makes for a very long day. This is five days per week Monday through Friday as well. It is time consuming and not a typical lifestyle. I will not lie to you and tell you that it is easy to do. It isn't.  We have dedicated our season right now as a family and are committed to do what it takes to get her well, and get her body functioning.  It is also a great deal of expense and sacrifice as we deal with many, many issues.  We are thankful to God for the provision He has given to us, we are thankful to God as well as He has put many awesome people in our path for Abigaile.

  We currently are doing Polfit- check them out I am pulling video's and pictures of Abigailes progress here. We started in June of this year (2012) and have done ** several weeks of therapy ( I'll edit this as soon as I can add it up on the calendar) I just changed schedules so that we aren't grouping our weeks all in one group. I am spreading them out. Abigaile loves her Therapists ( I think she must have started even understanding when they speak in Polish, as she comes home and tells us all about it)  This is simply for Abigailes needs to be met.

  Abigaile has been doing Hyperbaric Oxygen therapy as well at The Center for New Medicine with Dr. Jolly and the girls Mimi and Debbie. She has a schedule of 70 minutes in the tank with one of our family members who always goes in with her. She never "dives alone".  This is for seizure precaution which by the way has never happened. Thank you Lord.

  It has been two years ago this month since we have visited the wonderful  folks at The Brain Treatment Center.  We recently did an EEG just as a curious update (because of Abigailes progress) and got some wonderful news and progress report.  I will post the EEG under the tab of TMS. I will need to check with the professionals ( our team of HBOT, TMS, and of course Dr. J) before we can say which therapy or treatment it was due to. We will be going back soon just waiting now to schedule and try to work everything in.
 
 It is going to be a busy rest of the year.  We desperately need time off, and have need for a vacation. If none of the rest of us deserve it I know for a fact that Abigaile deserves it.
  She is my walking, soon to be talking, seizure free (controlled environment) 9 year old girl.  We still have a very long ways to go but my baby is alive and making progress with that I attribute to God, His Grace, and His Mercy and that He is alive and well and still performing miracles today.

Blessings,
Paris 

Right to protect our Medical Free Choice

Dear Governor Brown,
  My family moved to the state of California 2 years ago in October.  The reason that we moved here is because of the medical care and more opportunity for our daughter who was injured by vaccines.  You see our case is a proven vaccine injury, and not speculation. We spent a few years traveling to different states to get care for her. There is more diversity in care to meet her needs in California.  We gave away most of our belongings, packed our rental truck and traveled 1600 miles. This was initially temporary because we weren't sure if the treatments would work or not.  After a few months of treatments several hours per day (5-7 hrs) and mostly 5 days per week to help rehabilitate our child to health we decided this was going to take more than a few months. We made the decision once our FMLA ran out and my husband ending up losing his job to stay here because of the quality and diversity of care for her. We sacrificed that and it has been more than worth it.
  I no longer give my child immunizations because my daughter had a serious adverse reaction that almost cost her life.  We felt that after even looking at the insert for the vaccines, since we were not able to show which vaccine actually caused the reaction, that it was in her best interest not to give any more vaccines.  We talked this over with her Physician and Pediatrician at the time as well as Neurologist and decided in our daughter’s best interest we would no longer give vaccines.  I have worked in the nursing profession prior to having children and since the reaction I have spent many hours doing research on the safety and efficacy of vaccines. If my daughter were to get another vaccine she could die. The way that AB2109 affects my family and my child is that I have already been educated on vaccines.  I don't need to take my child to another Dr. to tell me what I already know. It is invasive and my daughter already has a list of Dr.s and Physicians that are in other states who disagree with having to sign an exemption because it is not required in their state. It is an unnecessary expense for knowledge we have already researched extensively.  I don’t need a Dr who doesn’t know my child and who is ignorant of vaccine reactions I have already been through that and so has my child. I’m tired of her being traumatized by a group of medical Dr.s who say that vaccine reactions don’t happen. They do happen why else would the symptoms of the reactions be on package inserts even the drug makers aren’t that ignorant. If your child has a reaction, there is NO APPROVED TEST to find out if that happened. You spend thousands and hundreds of thousands of dollars already to find out what happened, NOT covered by insurance. My daughter is NOT autistic but has had many other debilitating and life-threatening issues that we still work on 9 years later. This bill is an invasion of my rights as a parent and places our family in a financial hardship as well as places our immuno-compromised child who was injured by a vaccine through more unnecessary Dr visits that we spent the last 9 years doing already. This bill demands & forces parents against their will for time, money and research that parents have already done. If you wish to give parents more education then give it at well visits every time, isn’t that what well visits are for? Put it on the C.P.S. and Health and Human Services web sites. If families receive public assistance, give it to them then and ask them to sign in? I’m sure that you would get a more positive response from all parents. Don’t you think? I’d like to invite you to my daughters website it is somewhat incomplete due to the 7-9 hours of therapy per day to fix the damage that the vaccines did.  My daughter’s prognosis was that IF she lived she would be a vegetable, if not she would die. Thank God she is neither but it isn’t just because of the Dr.s we worked with I have been active in my child’s care and making recommendations as the Dr.s and specialists have.  Please VETO AB2109 for the benefit of the child(ren). There are parents who love and care and research for their children.  We do not live in a third world country. We have a wealth of knowledge, resources and parents who desire to help their children succeed. VETO AB2109 for Abigaile and for other kids who need individualized care. All kids need individual care they aren't cookie cutters, otherwise why do Dr.s do individual health care plans for each patient. Children are no different.

Sincerely,
Paris Golec     http://abigailesstory.blogspot.com/

Happy Birthday little Sweet Pea ! We love you !

 My little sweet pea Abigaile was born just after 11:00 am.  We were over-joyed at the thoughts of another little one for Allen and I who prayed for the baby to be healthy and well, and for Natascha to have a baby (sibling to play with) we did not know what sex.  

  We have our then friends Matt and Deanna who watched Natascha and took her to church for us so she didn't miss services and she could still have fun. She slept at their house for a few hours and later that day she had a baby sister. 

  Abigaile, you name stands for strength, look at Abigaile in the Bible who was a woman of great strength this I know that you are and will be a great woman of strength one day. 

  Abigaile you have filled our lives with Joy, Happiness and faith!  

  We have watched you from getting injured from the vaccines, and not knowing if you would live one minute to the next day but we always had faith that God is not a killer, God gives life. He gave you life and He gave you to our family.  You are an awesome testimony of healing and hope and Joy!  

  Even though you won't have and never have had what everyone else knows to be a normal Birthday we ( your dad, and I and Natascha ) will do the best we can to play with you, make you happy and have a lot of fun with you on your birthday. 

  My prayers for you is life, happiness, to overflow with Joy. I pray for exceeding Joy for you the rest of your days. I pray for protection from the ugliness of the dark and principalities of dark. 

  I pray for you that you fulfill Gods call on your life. My prayer is abundant life until it overflows.  You have given us some of the most trying past 9 years but I would never trade them for anything. I just wish that you would have never had to get injured from the vaccine that is my greatest wish of all. 

  I pray little sweet pea that your day is blessed beyond measure and that God richly blesses you today and many more days to come. 

love you sweet pea,

your mommy <3

Stay tuned ...

  I am in the process of updating Abigaile's blogspot to all the great things that have been happening.  We are also super busy in the respect that we live therapy, treatments, making food, school.  The therapy and treatments with drive time end up being a eight ( 8 ) - ten (10 ) hour day.  We have 7 - 8 hours alone of just therapy.  We spend weekends cooking and doing laundry now.  The three day weekend is great because we can spend a day with laundry, cleaning house and cooking and actually rest a day. Our Labor Day today will be spent ( at least part of it) in the pool.

Happy Labor Day everyone !