Sunday, December 23, 2012

Merry Christmas

 Well it is getting close to the closing and end of another year.  Goodbye 2012 as we remember the season to celebrate Christ the Messiah and what He has done for us.  When we moved to California 2 years ago in November 2010 we really had no idea what was in store for us as individuals, for Abigaile or for our family.  Never sell God short, He is amazing. I believe that what comes out of our mouth , what we speak, what we believe, and our actions play a significant role in our lives. If we are bitter we sow bitterness even sometimes trying to correct it.  We also sow our fear.  My only comment plain and clear is that it gives the devil a foothold and well beneath my feet satan and get thee behind me you liar!  
  We started out 2010 with our feet running- we stayed initially in a vacation rental as we didn't know the area.  We then moved to a rental further up the hill (this was because of availability and price).  We continued to do some form or shape of therapy Monday through Friday therapy or treatments every single day of the week non stop.   We did rTMS the Transmagnetic brain stimulation at the Brain Treatment Center, we did Applied Behavior Therapy, we did hyperbaric oxygen therapy.  We also looked for employment in between and home schooled.  This year we have done all of those again except we have not done the rTMS but started a very aggressive Polish therapy that is Monday through Friday 5 hours per day plus driving.  We have seen major improvements with Abigaile. Her gross and fine motor skills she has more strength, endurance and has began walking with crutches. We are really just starting to see the fruit of our labor.  This next year we will start a new regimen of therapies and treatments. I have already started planning for next year.  
  I will start by saying that our funds are dwindling.  It is crazy expensive in California.  We both have jobs on top of our rehabbing Abigaile and it is not enough. We really can't continue at the price we are. It is mentally and physically grueling.  We need rest and a vacation that we haven't had since we got married over Fifteen years ago.  We have spent the past nine years rehabbing our child from a vaccine injury and we still have a long ways to go.  
  We can no longer afford living expenses here as we are not getting any help from agencies, or state or anywhere else that benefit our daily living costs.  We are praying about where God wants us to go from here. So we are looking at job options elsewhere, cost of living, and how far it is from California so that we can travel 3-4 times per year to maintain Abigailes care. It is a terrible decision to make and not one that we are taking lightly. We just don't have the funds plain and simple. We are just tired.  We have the next six months living expenses and therapy and treatments and that is it.
  Our hopes and prayers are that you have a Merry Christmas may God grant you the desires of your heart. I know nothing is impossible with God!  Have a prosperous and Happy New Year.  I will consider the last two years we have spent in Southern California an absolute blessing from God. He has just melted my heart with His unconditional love during this season of our life. 
many many blessings,


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