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Summer 2013 Beauty for Ashes

To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified.  So reads Isaiah 61:3.... 

  I have been reminded of this verse many times, through many circumstances and have been to this place so many times.  I believe it is part of our maturity , growth and to humble ourselves before God and His very presence in our lives.  I think of God and I am brought to tears, to my knees in worship, in adoration of Him how He can love those who are so filthy and no worth of His praise but yet He adores His children, us.  
  We have dealt with many circumstances and I will tell you the deeper our faith the more humbling experience happens. I am just reduced to "ashes" . I am waiting for my beauty in all this and I believe that my beauty comes from praising God and to worship God through all t…

Happy Fathers Day !

Well with all the moving, packing and disorganized chaos that we have right now. I decided to do something early for Allen for Fathers Day.  He made a comment a while back that he misses going fishing.  Yes, I can relate to that I really miss doing anything for myself.  Hasn't happened for a long time and you know what people laugh at that but really look at yourself in the mirror before you judge me.
  I spend a lot of time with my child's care and that means not just physical care but administrative time as well that no one sees.  I know what it is like not to get away.

  He got me thinking because I normally don't have a problem with buying something for him.  We really did not have the funds to do it though as we had a lot of expenses for Abi this month with Dr.s and my Dr.s visits etc, eye appts, etc still not done but it will have to wait until we have insurance again.

  Here is my post for what I did with the girls :

Tuesday via mobile
He's out on the brigh…

Reflections of the past and moving on...

Well it really has been a very busy, tiring, but yet thrilling time for our little girl.  We have been thankful for the time that we have spent here in S. California.
 We are at a point however that it is time to move on.  We came here 2 and 1/2 years ago after making the decision that our daughter
would be able to receive a better continuity of medical care.  Her primary care Physician resides here and so it has been a lot easier when we have had issues that we need to deal with it just makes it so much easier. We also have access to more providers and providers that can meet our daughters medical needs.
 There are also more of a diverse area of treatments for us to select for her with advice from her Primary Care Physician who has been a great deal of help to us. It has really been difficult not having any additional help, not that we have had any additional help to begin with but we have totally depended on our immediate family ( myself, Allen (dad), Natascha (big sister) ) to…

we have come a long way baby...

This is really true looking at the past two years of our lives.  After such a horrible event,  the cover up of the truth.  The Dr.s and Specialists in denial, or are they?  Are they not being told the truth are they being lied to?  There are agencies in our US government system that approve all the food, drugs, medical equipment that show a reasonable consideration for the safety system , right?    I use to think so, not so much anymore. I am also still in that system to a point and continue education in the system of Health Sciences and out of the system. I have to say besides a few people who are out there just to defiant to the system well I believe there are a lot more people searching and not just being fed what they are being fed.    I learned this scenario 9 years ago when my daughter was vaccine injured. It is amazing to me how many people that haven't had this happen to them, haven't researched vaccines, haven't really looked at any of the statistics just belie…

If you say Go, we will go. If you say wait, we will wait

Wanted to do a quick blog for now to say that while we are trying to get things organized and figure out exactly which end is up topside we will do more of an update and resume therapies and treatments.

If You Say Go - Vineyard Music 

God certainly amazes me, always! It is in our darkest hour, our trial our temptation that God just flourishes!  We feel so low like we are crawling but know that God is carrying us.  My little Abigaile is doing great.  We have been working on getting school organized and caught up after all the treatment months. We are just tired.  It will get better I do know this! It always does.

  Our challenge right now is that our current homeowner wants to sell his home, we feel that he wishes we would move on (as repairs are getting neglected and not paid attention to). That is okay if God wants us here He will work it out. If not, we shall move on.  I am not shaken. Psalm 62:2 says He only is my rock and my salvation, My stronghold; I shall not be shaken. AMEN.

Just another Day in Paradise ...

Lord, its me again.... 
  I'm really trying to keep it together but when I see things like this it really hurts and it 

really humbles my heart.  I am so thankful we have had God when there has been no one 

else! I am so glad He is there even though we may not see Him, or know that He is there 

because the very pit of our gut is just wrenching because, well we are still human. 

  Today was one of those days. We are thankful for what we have, thankful for Gods grace and His never- ending LOVE. We are thankful for one another we are thankful for all that we have and thankful that it belongs to God. I am just "THANKFUL",

   There are days like today that the emotions just really get to me. I am tired.  It is difficult having this road for over 9 years now that there has been no break and no vacation and no time away for me.  Really, no time away. Before you jump to conclusions that I want time away from my family I don't - I want a real vacatio…

Happy New Year 2013

It is from our family to yours we wish you a Happy and prosperous New Year 2013!

    I can safely say that this New Years Eve and New Years Day we did nothing. We are beat after two full years in Southern California with no help doing therapy or treatments of some sort and sometimes multiple every single Monday through Friday. This year will be much better planned. I am still waiting to hear from all the treatment and therapy sources on their availability and pricing and as soon as I hear from them well then we will be hitting the ground again. However, this year is a little different. We currently only have until May ( our 16th wedding anniversary) in this house. It is a great house but we need to clean out and it looks like move on. We thought that our job prospects would be better by now, we both have jobs but it just isn't enough. God has a plan, yes He does! We don't know what it is yet, but His Word says that it is to make us prosper in all things.  
For I know the pl…